I need you to know that I’ve spent no less than 2 hours lamenting the “dying for ice cream” to “but i want to be skinny” ratio happening in my head.
It’s like 50* outside and I do not understand how to layer in this weather. I’m basically wearing a giant cardigan and a ski resort coat, and it’s hot now and I just want to crawl back into my room, past piles and piles of filthy laundry that I was too sick to do last week and sleep until 4 or maybe 5.
It’s not so much that I go from loving to hating my jobs. I actually should do a stand-up routine for being a serial job hopper. It’s mostly that in a city this big, you find a lot of different kinds of businesses, but one major theme is a lack of professionalism. I mean to say that a lot of “moderately successful” companies are ran by people who run their business like a high school and take pride in their high turnaround rate. I think that mostly stems from there being so many start-ups and so much opportunity that people who should not be running businesses get a streak of luck without having to grow into those roles and responsibilities. What really sucks is that most of these jobs will be high paying (no benefits, ever), but the people make it unbearable.
In this particular case, I am torn about what to do. The pay is ridiculous (in the best way), and it’s a small office, which I appreciate. However, I find that my boss has extreme moods and is so scared that this business won’t be successful that he takes it out on those of us working really hard to make it happen. So really, I’m just trying to decide if I think it’s worth it for a little while longer, or if I should do what I am great at and find another better position that fills my needs for a period of time.
Things I was supposed to buy today:
Things I bought today:
I shouldn’t be allowed to have money.
Some people will never grow up and hold themselves accountable for where they are in their lives. We all make choices, some better than others, but more important than the choices we make is the way we handle them. Blaming others for our poor planning only makes us weaker and pushes everyone away. I hope in 2013 you learn that, or you’re going to push everyone away for good.